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[May, 1990] Are You There God? It’s Me, Damiella

[I seriously considered leaving this entry out of The Diary Project, to spare myself the many layers of embarrassment contained therein. I decided there was too much for me to mock to keep it private.]


May 15th, 1990

Dear Journal,

Well there’s not really much to tell you.

[Except that there is. This entry was so long and juicy (that’s what she said) that I ecided to split it up into two blog posts.]

I wrote a fan letter to New Kids on the Block (well Yan Mei wrote most of it and put Carmella Louise, hers and my name on it.) and I wrote one to Debbie Gibson.

[I don’t know what’s worse, the fact that I was involved in the writing of a fan letter to New Kids on the Block, or the fact that I didn’t even write most of the damn thing and just added my name to the bottom. You be the judge. I just wish I saved a copy of the letter I wrote to Debbie Gibson, because I’m sure it would be highly amusing to read today.]

Well I am going to be graduating very soon, and we are going to have a prom. It will probably be so much fun.

I am going on a trip to Philadelphia with my class on May 22 and we are going to spend the whole day going to museums and other places and learning a lot of new things.

I also think that I am going to have my period very soon, because I get cramps pretty often and today I even got a twitch in my leg, and even though Mom says that it’s just nothing, I read somewhere and some one told me that you get these twitches before you get your period.

I hope that I don’t get it in school, because it would be VERY embarrassing, especially if anyone noticed.

[No, what is truly, truly outrageous embarrassing is that I believed a leg twitch was an omen for menstruation. And that I was actually eager for this cursed event to actually happen.

I blame Judy Blume.

Her classic young adult novel and ode to menstruation, Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret, made puberty this desirable thing. Blume somehow, bafflingly, portrayed a girl getting her period as this cool thing, like a badge of honor. It was an invitation to be part of an older, more with-it, more mature group of not girls (oh no) but women. I wanted that. Had I known the physical discomfort, emotional wretchedness, and ick factor that accompanied the monthly event, I would not have been so impatient. Now I wish I could visit my twelve-year-old self, shake some sense into her, and make her enjoy the few period-free years she had left.]

Today in Family Living class, we were talking about the changes that a girl goes through during Preadolescence and a lot of things that the teacher mentioned are happening to me right now, for example: I am a lot more sensitive now and I cry quite often, and I am growing a lot of hair you-know-where, and my breasts are beginning to grow, also.

In other words, I probably should have been surrounded by flashing hazard lights and enveloped with “CRIME SCENE DO NOT CROSS” tape. And mind you, this was all before my first bout with PMS. So much for me to “look forward” to…

  1. Ron
    February 25, 2010 at 12:16 pm

    Wow. I’m getting some insight into the female world that I’ve never had before.

  2. February 25, 2010 at 12:35 pm

    Pretty funny stuff. Curious, how old were you when you wrote this and what grade were you in?

    I started my period at my Aunt’s house and hid my dirty panties under a mattress.

  3. February 25, 2010 at 12:48 pm

    Yes, Judy Blume totally made puberty trendy! I point-blank wrote in my fourth grade diary that Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret made me change my stance from anti- to pro-period. I also said that my breasts were “already going.” In reality, they wouldn’t be going anywhere for several years.

  4. bridget
    February 25, 2010 at 2:23 pm

    are there many if any journal entries that you’ve left out?

  5. damiella
    February 25, 2010 at 3:08 pm

    Ron: I’m sorry?

    Waiting: I was 12, nearing the end of 6th grade.

    Sada: Are these 4th grade diaries online (yet)?

    Bridget: That’s something that I answer here: http://bit.ly/aM2uKa

  6. February 25, 2010 at 11:51 pm

    Judy Blume is guilty of making puberty sound way too cool. She made me think that as soon as I turned ten my period would be showing up at any second. Every leg twitch was the start of ovulation. Every stomach twinge was surely cramps. What more could a girl want than her very own period?
    I’m glad I wasn’t the only one that was completely fooled by Judy and her book of lies!

  7. February 27, 2010 at 11:54 pm

    I’m pretty sure I wrote this exact same diary entry. Love the idea of this blog!

  8. damiella
    February 28, 2010 at 1:02 am

    Alison: Okay, I thought I was a little nutso for believing a leg twitch was some kind of indicator; so glad I’m not the only one. Hahaha re: “Judy and her book of lies.” She better not write a novel about how awesome menopause is.

    Sarah: Thank you! And it’s a relief to know there are other gals out there who were keen to get “the curse.” What were we thinking?

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